Hmm.. Just somehow came to this conclusion. I am useless.. Can't seems to get anythinh right.. Can't solved my own problem, can't solved my friend's problem because her problem is the same as mine and I can understand how difficult it is to solved. So maybe it is good to remain single and be cold-hearted afterall..

I dislike things that mess up my life but there are some things you are willing to let them mess up your life. Irony and complicated thoughts of humans...

Can't believed that I updated this entry three times le, just want to write down something that come across my mind before I forget. I used to scold one of my friend why is it that he treat his gf this way and he told me, reluctant to commit again is because he is afraid of being hurted again. I was lost for words for this applies to me too, in the way, I always find myself hurt very badly everytime I thought I can trust and commit myself into. First you change to be more wary of your surroundings and until a point of time you got so sick and tired of everything and just decide to shunt yourself from everything and just start to be complacent and ignore everythings and person that comes your way. So I am dead, tears no longer flow to cure my heart that has ached for so long. Nothing seems to go the way I expect, gas pipe leaks, equipment failure. Is it just me who are starting to get complacent or is it..... whatever... Guess my life shall carry on this way until someday someone come and save me out of this mess I am in.

How does it feels like to all of sudden no longer be with someone who is very close to you, a pillar whom you can always depend on... This is something I realised.. I cannot always find back the pillar to lean on everytime I met with problem, I have to learn to be more independent. Everytime I thought I am immune to things I thought I will be dead to but then again I find that these things are still in my heart waiting to be triggered.. Visible scars on skins can be removed easily by laser, how I wish I could remove my emotional scars that lies deep inside my heart as easily as that...

Just want to be cold hearted for the time being because I do not wish to be hurt anymore.. I am just a typical Sagittarius that long for someone to care for but I shall remain heart dead for the time being. Too disappointed with the words like, love and hate...