Didn't sleep last night.. Find that it has been a long time since I last don thru the night le. So ended playing games and also a bit of thinking...

I was thinking my life long route that I have taken... So this is going to be a long blog entry.. haha..

I can still remember some of the things I did when I was small. Gripping penknife with my bare hands until it is bleeding very badly, throw my brother's favourite calculator down the rubbish chute, recording our nonsense into the cassette tape, playing lego (at that time my favourite was using lego to simulate those soccer games. not those real life one, is actually from a game which i liked a lot) and of course tranformers.

Of course next comes the kindergarden. I was quite a timid one at that time hence I cried when being left alone in the class and the teacher has a hard time cheering me up. Well.. thanks to my mum, I got all full marks for my grade and I remembered once that I let a little girl copied my answer during the test, oh well, I was too young then to know the rules of test hence ended being scolded by my teacher and being call stupid by my parents.

My primary school was Chong Shan at amk there. Now already no more le. Studied P1-3 there. I still remember that I always never hear annoucement cause I know my brother will heard and tell me because he is in P5 same school. haha... Then came P3 when it is my worst fear. haha.. hearing annoucement myself. Still remember that both of us always get a lift from a neighbor, in return my parents gave them some money. haha.. That's crappy. P4-6 was done at Huamin in yishun because I shifted there. Well it was a new school and of course.. too much new things and inexperience teachers hence my grades dropped... But I quite like one of the teacher there... Surprisingly, he taught me for two years, he is also my math, science and PE teacher. haha... Fun...

Think secondary school was the turning point for life. Sec 1 and 2 was a nerdy self. haha.. veyr bad temper and always quarrelled with my friends. There was two transferred student who were slighty older and bossing around. I was not really keen to give them any attention and respect hence lots of trouble in the end. Something happened in my home hence I lost the mood to study hence I dropped from express stream to normal. It was a great impact on my parents and I know I have hurted them. That is the turning point for me in life. No longer am I taking things for granted.. I learnt to be filial to my parents cause I almost lost them.. And of course physically I also changed. haha.. Sec 1 50kg, Sec 5 also 50kg just that height rose from 152 to 172cm. Somehow I stopped growing, until now I still same height. I started to change my hairstyle and of course, during sec 3, our classmates start to talk about girlfriends... Guess that's the first time when I got fond of one girl. I told my friend who happen to be in the same class and eca group as me. And the next thing I know, he declare to the whole band that he likes that girl.. So I was the one in the dark, he is the one in the open. Somehow I gave up and told him that I give up so he can carry on wooing her.. guess what he say to me "Oh, really. You sure ? okay, then I want you to call her now and tell her to give up on you" So I really did called her and told her to give up on me and to give my friend a chance... Stupid right ? Of course I cried.. This was the first time I got fond of a girl.. Somehow I don't know why, after that, I start to play around. I got to know a lot of girls... flirt with them... then when realising that they got fond of me, I will run away in fear of a relationship and committment. Somehow, I was very afraid of committments at that time. Lots of things happen. From the girl my good friend like falls in love with me, to letting go girls that I like to my so call good friends and so on... And of course I get to know my two 'sis'. They were the greatest companion for me at that time. Quite sad that one has devoted her life totally to christianity and she don't even have the time to meet me... The other has devoted her life to work and her boyfriend... Its been a long time since I last saw them. Sort of miss them..

Shall continue JC and Army and Uni life another time. got to start work.